Derive By Deprive

I often read the success stories of famous actors, doctors, athletes etc. In every other story I asses that there was some power which derived them to heights of success. That unseen power pushed them to work harder and harder until it took them beyond the border of failure and made them stand and glitter […]


Happiness is….

Happiness is when I can do the things I wasn’t allowed to do before. I grew up with so many restrictions that I feel in one way my childhood got stolen from me. But doing them now it gives me this overwhelming feeling of happiness. Feeling I am free and finally can do as I […]



Broken, damaged and in a dark place.

Blogging about the past is kind of hard. Sometimes I wonder that maybe I shouldn’t have started this. Especially when I get negative responses. Often from the people, I have hurt in the past. They remind me of who I was before. That still hurts and I am ashamed of who I was and it […]


7 signs of spiritual abuse

Sometimes I wonder how people get the control and get people to follow them almost blindly. Wondering if we actually want to use our brains and think for ourselves or rather let other people do the thinking for us. Because a person in a leading position doesn’t really have any authority unless we give them […]


Why do I blog?

From the reactions, I got from people, I notice that some of the readers do not really understand why I started blogging and why now. This month it is 6 years ago I made the hardest choice of my life and left the cult and the faith I grew up in. You can read more […]


OMG my first concert in an arena

In a lifetime there are a lot of first times. And the last few years I have done a lot already that I wasn’t allowed to do before. In the Message, most of any entertainment was kind of forbidden since it was from the Devil. Clapping and cheering was idol worshipping. Worldly music was off […]